Heartbreak is lying on your bed, soaking the pillow with tears, sobbing endlessly struggling to breathe, and at the same time wondering why it all went wrong and how you are gonna live and pretend that everything is all right.
Heartbreak is remembering every moment you spent together, movies and dinners you had, those sleepless nights talking about your future and lives together.
Heartbreak is when tears roll down your cheeks even by the mention of his name or listening to the songs he loved.
Heartbreak is when you cry to sleep at night, only to wake up with heaviness in your heart and feel like shouting at the top of your voice to make him know about the pain you are enduring.
Heartbreak is when you laugh too hard to hide the tears already in your eyes.
Heartbreak is when you start pretending that you are better off without him.
Heartbreak is when you start cursing the moment you met. And swear to never fall in love with anyone else.
It is difficult to pretend that everything is all right when in your heart you know that nothing will be same ever again. It feels like that you are back to where you started, the only difference being that now you are more lonely than ever. But in your heart you still pray every moment for the same person to come back and fix everything.
Sometime you just have to hold your head up high, blink away the tears and say good-bye. You are going to be all right. And if you need some great distraction you know whom to contact. No matter what I promise I am not going to break-up with you.
So... from now on... when you think of him... just remember that you were actually the best thing he ever had. He was just a chapter in the story of your life...a lesson to make you stronger.
Its time for you to let go of him and embrace much better things you have in your life.
P.S. This is for you N.