Aaghaaz, the fresh start

As she entered silently, all eyes turned towards her. The silence was marked by the melodious rhythm of her payal and bangles. She was oblivious of the people around her. As she reached near her destination her eyes automatically met his. The smile that danced on her face at that moment was incredible. All the anxiety and tiredness vanished instantly. To answer her smile, he just put forward his hand and held hers’ tight, silently promising of never leaving, ever.

She had dreamt about this moment so many times that now it seemed like déjà vu. As the chants started, the incidents from the last 7 years flashed before her eyes. The ups and downs, the happy and sad everything seemed to fit in its place now.

She has changed in all these years and so has he.

What mattered was that they had lived through everything and were still together. Past was gone for good. There present and future were now together. A new life was starting.

What to do?

when you feel happy and sad at the same time....

when you want to laugh hard but end up crying silently...

when you don't know what to say still, want to talk ...

when you don't know the reasons of your slow heart beat...

when people value money more than relationships...

when you say something but mean something else....

when you fight most with the person you love....

when you want to share your feelings but feel cold....

when someone sees through your mask....

when you have a destination but it feels the best to wander in the wild....

when you don't want a dream to change into reality....

when you want to take a leap but are afraid of letting go of present...

when you have desire but no fire....

when you know that you don't want to change but still you think you should...

when you miss the warm hug of someone who is a thousand miles away...

when you start questioning your existence.

Rain rain....

After the scorching heat of summer the eagerly awaited rains are always refreshing. The smell of damp earth, the greener leaves and the clear atmosphere fills everyone with joy and peace. You may be in any kind of mood the rain drops will always make you change into a child. And in no time you will get soaked in the pouring rain, laughing at your own juvenile self.

It is the time of the year when the potholes no longer bother you because you realize that without the rain, there would be no rainbow.

Heartbreaks & promises

Heartbreak is lying on your bed, soaking the pillow with tears, sobbing endlessly struggling to breathe, and at the same time wondering why it all went wrong and how you are gonna live and pretend that everything is all right.

Heartbreak is remembering every moment you spent together, movies and dinners you had, those sleepless nights talking about your future and lives together.

Heartbreak is when tears roll down your cheeks even by the mention of his name or listening to the songs he loved.

Heartbreak is when you cry to sleep at night, only to wake up with heaviness in your heart and feel like shouting at the top of your voice to make him know about the pain you are enduring.

Heartbreak is when you laugh too hard to hide the tears already in your eyes.

Heartbreak is when you start pretending that you are better off without him.

Heartbreak is when you start cursing the moment you met. And swear to never fall in love with anyone else.

It is difficult to pretend that everything is all right when in your heart you know that nothing will be same ever again. It feels like that you are back to where you started, the only difference being that now you are more lonely than ever. But in your heart you still pray every moment for the same person to come back and fix everything. 

There may be thousands of solutions your friends may be giving you to get over with all of this. But you are the one going through it. You know all the answers.

Sometime you just have to hold your head up high, blink away the tears and say good-bye. You are going to be all right. And if you need some great distraction you know whom to contact. No matter what I promise I am not going to break-up with you.

So... from now on... when you think of him... just remember that you were actually the best thing he ever had. He was just a chapter in the story of your life...a lesson to make you stronger.
Its time for you to let go of him and embrace much better things you have in your life.

P.S. This is for you N.

A Vacant Room

Ever wondered why a vacant room looks much smaller than a room full of people. It is then you notice the color of the walls, the floor, the door and the windows. It is then you discover the missing elements, the free space around you.

Then you realize that your life resembles that room. Confined from all sides by the walls...there is just one door...a door from where people enter and exit....spend time in the room and then leave....the windows allow light to enter and you see the outside world from them...wondering all your life what's outside those boundaries. At times your life is full of people and some other time it's vacant like that room.

A vacant room makes you remember the people who are missing from your life. The people who once lived there...the people who laughed with you...shared life with you....the people who once were an indispensable part of your life...the people without whom you couldn't imagine to live a second alone....the people you swear to be with, all your life.

And then new tenants come and the room is again a place full of happiness and laughter. The color of walls change...there are new pictures...new furniture...and new life. You become part of someone else's life. And you start living again...though with new people....at a new place...already ready to face another emptiness.

Some quotes which I love :)

“This is where it all begins. Everything starts here, today.”

~ One Day

Whether I shall turn out to be the hero of my own life, or whether that station will be held by anybody else, these pages must show.

~ David Copperfield

"Sometimes you have to be apart from the people you love, but that doesn't make you love them any less. Sometimes it makes you love them more."

~ The Last Song

"What can you say about a twenty-five-year-old girl who died? That she was beautiful. And brilliant. That she loved Mozart and Bach. And the Beatles. And me."

~ Love Story

It's the possibility that keeps us going, not the guarantee.

~ The Notebook

“Nothing that’s worthwhile is ever easy. Remember that.” 

~ Message in a Bottle

My daddy used to tell me that the first time you fall in love it changes your life forever. And no matter how hard you try, the feeling never goes away.

~ The Notebook

For all the lies I've tasted, just looking for the truth. For all the dreams I'm chasing, well what am I to do. When everything's against me, and the answers are all wrong; I'm hoping that I find out it was worth it all along.

~ The Calling

“If you have to keep a secret it's because you shouldn't be doing it in the first place” 

~ One Day

"Who am I? and how, I wonder, will this story end?"

~ The Notebook

"Gestures are all that I have; sometimes they must be grand in nature. And while I occasionally step over the line and into the world of the melodramatic, it is what I must do in order to communicate effectively. In order to make my point without question."

~ The Art of Racing In The Rain

“Scared is what you're feeling. Brave is what you're doing.”
~ The Room

“It may be unfair, but what happens in a few days, sometimes even a single day, can change the course of a whole lifetime...”
~ The Kite Runner

“It was only a smile, nothing more. It didn't make everything all right. It didn't make ANYTHING all right. Only a smile. A tiny thing. A leaf in the woods, shaking in the wake of a startled bird's flight. But I'll take it. With open arms. Because when spring comes, it melts the snow one flake at a time, and maybe I just witnessed the first flake melting. - Amir”

~ The Kite Runner

“Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.”

~ The Princess Diaries

And as Roark looked at him, he added: "Don't worry. They're all against me. But I have one advantage: they don't know what they want. I do."

~ The Fountainhead

“And then some days you wake up and everything's perfect”
~ One Day

No wonder they say love is a game, a mystery, a madness.

Failing is the first step to success, crying is the first step to happiness. And heart break is the first step to true love.

"Shes a great girl and she knows what to say to make me smile, but the funny thing is u dont even have to say anything to make me smile..just u urself makes me smile."

There are people who make things happen, there are people who watch things happen, and there are people who wonder what happened. To be successful, you need to be a person who makes things happen.

The things you regret in life are the risks you didn’t take.

Too often we don't realize what we have until it's gone, too often we're to stubborn to say 'sorry, i was wrong' too often it seems we hurt the one's closest to our hearts and we let the most foolish things tear us apart.

When you can't avoid...enjoy it :)

New beginning or another ending

Another day...another eventful year...

So here I am another year older but not necessarily any wiser (or maybe more dim-witted!!!) As any other year the previous one was as normal as it can be for me. The bumpy ride, the smooth sailing, the happy faces, the sad faces, and the angry faces...all were seen.

As usual I did cry a lot and as usual I did laugh a lot. There were setbacks and there were accomplishments.

Looking at the events believe me you learn a lot in an year. But the greatest learning this year for me was accepting "changes".

Just when you think that things can't get any better, they actually do - believe me. And it boggles with your mind because it is too good and you don’t want to mess it up so you keep pretending that nothing changed. But the truth is, things change in an instant: 60 seconds phone call, one harsh comment, one tender kiss, one silly mistake... and nothing remains the same. The how and why is beyond me. Change is the greatest mysteries of life.

Things change, people change....Though I have made some great friends I have also lost some very precious one. Life's all game...either you continue playing or quit it...either you enjoy winning or accept losing, it will not make any difference to its pace.

Life has no meaning, Life has no purpose. It is meant to be "LIVED"

So here's to another year which I am going to "Live".

Cheers!!!